Friday, February 27, 2009
good memories
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
office ladies
致:还未参加工作,仍在校园内做安逸学生;待业期的众多朋友。
办公室白领是什么意思?我不知道,好像也没什么具体的概念,但快递员会说我们是办公室的白领,坐在办公室里电脑前,安逸的,喝杯茶,吃个零食,即时在线聊天工具使用下...比他们风里来雨里去好多了。我想想:偷笑。
我知道了为什么毕业时很多人纯真的人格,美丽的面容会在工作后半年一年...被彻底改变,变得油条,变得冷血,变得事不关已,高高挂起,变得爱钻空,变得爱推卸责任,变得爱嚼舌根,变得惨不忍睹,变得势力,变得可怕,变得可怜,变得可悲...当然,这只是一部分会这样,还有好的存在着,比如我,我还清醒着,也时刻提醒着自己。
我不明白为什么要让人变得如此白纸黑字的证据放在眼前才会淹没你的无理,难道口头诚信不能作为诚信的证据了吗,难道一定要让你很难堪的时候你才会低下头却始终不承认错误吗,难道在别人背后不停的说三道四能显示你人缘极好吗...貌似有天大的秘密,其实敞开天窗说亮话不会效果更明显吗?
人人都说他是疯子,东风西吹,日夜颠倒完全不知人间白黑。我不会因为你卑微的所谓自尊来收拾别人的残局,推卸责任的人请出来,其实你们有什么能耐呢,就是在该表现的时候绝对绝对不忘秀一把,好吧,这是我的弱点,无法匹敌,也做不到这么虚伪。
办公室友情是什么呢,很难讲,不知道要修多久的缘才能遇见那么一个;
装痴卖傻的你几岁了,你就是装B;
办公室女郎何时才能团结起来,很难讲,基本上在我身在之时不会看到了。
Monday, February 23, 2009
this relief,this made my day
RANT
I found it's completely useless to argue with someone,it's a fucking waste of time and what's worse you know,that stupid asshole would drive you crazy!
And,your in a lower level than him in this muthafn company,what else you gotta say huh,he's never wrong,NEVER!So when you thought you could deal with him with some senseable reasons or just be rational with him, he doesn't buy it,and he won't buy it,he's just fucking stupid self-righteous dumb ass!That saying is right,"birds of a feather flock together",to whom that follow his lead,is also stupid in my eyes.
It's easy to find out,everyone dislike him but we just don't say it,but are you taking it as we're afraid of you?Or are you taking it as your the smartest muthafucker in this world?So nobody can compete with you?
But but but oh sir,why your still under controlled after these whoaa like 10 years of career fighting?Are you blind or retarded that your just an employeeeeeee,like everyone else here.
I don't fight with this dumbass no more,like I said it's totally useless and a waste of time,you'll just gonna see.
I feel much better now,cause it's ME who got the rights,and ohhh one more thing:to whom that called me the other day asking if i got scared,FUCK OFF lady!
Apparently,you don't know my temper at allll.It's YOU who got fucking scared,afraid of losing your job or bonus babe?
I don't wanna know cause I don't give a shit!
Friday, February 20, 2009
WHY
I just don't know how to start a conversation,which way is decent,how to tell them who am i,what's my name,what i am trying to say to them...
Is that a shyness or inferiority(is that the right word -.-) a sense of inferiority.
I don't know!The only thing i know is i have to overcome this psychology down in my head,it's like a psywar,can you get me?
However,i'm finally seeing the sun after this so long week!It looks so beautiful outside,I think everything will just get fine soon.
Wish me luck!
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
I have to make a note of this
Yes it's a tough economic time and all workers share the same common of getting fired,and today we're not only scared of getting fired but also afraid of getting laid off from jobs.
Those are 10 ways we'd damage our career,you should we should all avoid these:
1.Not keeping track of your accomplishment.
i have to say this is really important to keep notes of what you've done ,what you've got in the process of your work career,not to say someday your asking for a salary increase but also it helps when annual performance coming,and that time it's the only time your boss would know what you have achieved in this year.AND who knows whens the next time you're applying for another job,so what content you've got for your resume ,got it:)
2.Not keeping your skill set current.
You should always keep up the date,keep your skill set current to show that make your boss's money worthy on you espesically when he's going to reduce the expense.It's a ever-changing world remember that.
3.Not delivering results.
If you cost money instead of making money your guaranteed to fall in the wayside.The common sense would tell us that the bussiness is about accountbility.
4.Efficient does not equal effective.
Communicating with people by your emails,text messages,your blackberry chats won't help you establish the relationship with people.TALK to them is the fastest most effective way.
5.Thinking your irreplaceable.
There's no room for the "divas" in the workplace.There're millions of people looking for job right now and definitely more than a few of could do your job,replace your position and probably they'd do better than you.if you think your the only one who can do the job "right",your surely start to fall.
6.Knowing all the answers.
To stay afloat with today's job market,stay current and learn to ask questions and listen to some new ideas.
7.Surrounding yourself with "brownnosers" .
i am really sick of those bragging pig ass and i think your sharing the same opinion with me.
8.Take all the credits.
Just give credit where it due.Most managers are smart enough to recognize it when you inappropriately take full credit for positive outcomes despite the help or input by the others.
9.Not tooting your own horn.
Your boss doesn't have time to keep a tab on each of their empolyees,so how would your boss know the value of you to this company unless you tell him?
it's hard for some of those who're really shy (like me?! lol),but it really worth a try.
10.Losing your perpective.
It's awful to lose your perpective.Acknowledging that you're not perfect would earn you respect in the office,but give out an idea to show your way,people need to seek advice and perspectives.
Monday, February 16, 2009
a MONDAY
I always try to think optimistic while i'm getting ready for work on Monday or the whole weekday would turn out to be so crappy.And it really works for me!
it's pretty smoggy and raining for a little bit,like it's the best time to curl in your bed and just chillin' on the internet,turn off the lights,close your windows,draw off your curtains,what a wonderful day and at the same time it's the worst.Think further it'll just ruin your fight spirit,ruin your life.
Bingo!my boss wanted me to redone the report form for her due to her inconsistent idea.
So i have my very first deadline for Monday:it's 530pm.
i really hate doing endless report form,and excel just drives me crazy!
but deal with it,this is life,this is work,this is it!
Saturday, February 14, 2009
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不知道是睡不着还是根本就不想睡,好像总想发疯;
知道发疯是什么意思吗,其实我也不知道,总之我就是在乱踢乱打乱掐,我心里统统的都是闷,但,哪一个闷字了得!
就是堵的慌,我不知道为什么会这样,本来是好好的一天,到了晚上过的异常不顺畅!TA为什么要用那样的态度对我,我真不明白,我有这样吗,反思着我从来没这样过。
做完25张excel后我想我真的是崩溃了,如果领导说不是他想要的我想我更是无语加崩溃,但是我又能怎么样,难道我去大吼说你要什么,你到底想怎么样,要不你自己去做?这都是我积累太久的东西,但是我能这样说吗,我不能,尊重别人尊重自己都不能这样去做。
今天闲空看了虎人牛年的运势,貌似不佳,只能靠自己的意志力和理智来战胜一切困难方可,但是我对自己没有把握,至少这句话在今天(哦已经0:01am了)这个时刻说是对的。
其实很多时候我不能理解自己,也不知道自己到底应该去把握些什么,过的又迷糊又清楚的日子,我真的觉得很讨厌自己!
我真的很讨厌自己!
Thursday, February 12, 2009
i strongly feel the urge to stop doing this
this is what i did this morning when they guys are all gone to work and me got up tried on the shorts make sure that i can still fit in it,luckily after a whole night's diegestion and my push push push it in,i did it!
so look like this ,what does it mean huh ,i need to lose some serious weight and keep in shape in this so soon coming summer,i have to lose some especially on my thigh,i hate it!
yes i need neeed neeeeed to stop checking /reading blogs from time to time ,it's soooo stupid and a totally waste of gold time.
Spare meeee!!
a Thursday
Post up this entry is mainly out of boredem,this is what i made like 3 days ago,on Chinese Lantern's day,almost the most delicious stuff i've ever made,i love love love it.
i felt a little down right now but no idea what's all that about,being alone in my house is great,i should have got my ID card done but i'm way lazy to get ass off from my bed...
oh yes i made lunch for them but for ME it taste like ...oh boy!i barely eating anything this noon.
Cleaning is another big housework to do,should i just let it be?
how about those stray clothes and dust?
i hate hate hate dust in my room,i hope i don't get cleanliness.
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
我也不知道
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
URG
Monday, February 9, 2009
what i lack of
Saturday, February 7, 2009
can't let this sneak
*i didnt smile in the pics cause the sunlight blocked my eyes*
it's such a beautiful day,and it's a Saturdays(kudos for it);
so i was thinking of snapping some pics out of it:P
here is the balcony of our house,looks so pretty.
bear with me,they're all taken by my Nokia E71,*suck at taking pics*
don't have a regular digital camera right this moment lol,but it's already,enough for ME.
i was totally blind
I thought it was 23.40 bucks to buy that shampoo but the list showed 43.40;20 bucks just flied away from my bankcard and i didn't realize until i got home,ready to eat that look-so-sweet apple...
i don't think i'd EVER spend almost 50 bucks to buy a shampoo,i think it's such a waste,totally a waste of money.i prefer my money spend on some delicious food or clothes shoes...whatever but not those supermarket stuff.
but i have a decent a night sleep lmao pretty sacrastic i almost forgot this right now(it's noon lol);
okay just make a note of this;)
Friday, February 6, 2009
struggle
things are easy and clear out there but somehow:
should i be all serious about this?
does it really matter that the kitchen is a mess?
am i talking to myself?
should i get up at 7am in the morning to make that breakfast?
...
it's so chaotic,i need to clear my head;
i can't make everyone satisfied.
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
我的新年|my Chinese new year
from now on,i have this dream to go after,i find my target to hit,i have to get it done.
<3.
2009年的新年是辛苦的,劳累奔波在几个城市,生病了,难受了,想家了,但不管是什么原因,我都觉得是值得的。
新年我学到了很多东西。小时候看到书上有人写道:“那句话改变了我的一生”…总觉得这是不可信的,至少对于我来说。后来我假装让一些人的一些话使我大彻大悟,但是都是表面功夫,徒劳。我假装表现的我真的醒悟了,我的生活开始要有新的方向了,原来不是,我一直都只是在欺骗别人同时在麻醉着自己。
这一年真的变了很多,我想了很多,反省了很多,这样的生活是我迷茫的时候想要的,安定,无忧却无作为,一生也只能如此。但是曾经的我不是这样想的,我想要的是更多,更多却不是贪婪,而是在你能力里可以去得到的东西,我丢弃了太多,是时候该前进了。
22岁了,今年底就是23岁了,我真的脱离了18岁的光阴,我之前却一直在做梦自己只是18,20的列车我还没踏上,现在看来我只是自我蒙骗而已,真的太傻了。22岁对于女孩子或者说对于我来说是该明确事业的方向,感情要开始稳定下来向婚姻发展了,一直觉得“责任”这个词用在我们身上太过沉重,现在想想它其实就在眼前。就像找工作的时候从来不觉得找工作该是件多么成长的事情,总是在悠哉的过生活…我也不后悔,过去的成就现在的。
我是该想想我能做什么了,我可以做到的,或者至少我开始想着自己能做了,如果连想都没想的话,我就真的一辈子都不可能做到了,我在尝试,我在努力,如果我失败了,也是值得的,因为我付出了。
好了,这个新年是多样的,我开始喜欢那个城市,因为,我不会迷路。